Um… YEAH YOU DID!It’s long winded, but check out what Blake Fielder-Civil has to say about what he did to Amy Winehouse and how he plans on saving her.
"I made the biggest mistake of my life by taking heroin in front of her. I introduced her to heroin, crack cocaine and self-harming. I feel more than guilty. I dragged Amy into it and without me there is no doubt that she would never have gone down that road. I ruined something beautiful. Now I have to let her go to save her life. I am not abandoning her. I am doing this out of love."
Blake even recalled the first time Amy almost DIED.
"I was there when Amy suffered her first seizure. I still break down thinking about it. We had been taking drugs all day long – heroin and crack. We started early and finished late. We didn’t really stop… and while I was getting out of my head, I wasn’t thinking that I was taking somebody with me.
Then my wife… just started shaking violently in front of me. I started crying and I lay her down in the recovery position… It was heartbreaking, seeing someone you love more than yourself, someone you would die for… on the floor shaking."
There is so much more and trust me – you want to read it. Click on the continue reading link to see the rest of the story.
The image of Winehouse in such a terrible state will forever haunt Fielder-Civil.
"I will go to my grave with that picture of Amy asking me, Who are you? Who are you?’ She didn’t know who I was. I told Amy, ‘I’m your husband.’ "I knew then that I had ruined something beautiful. It was all my fault. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me in my life."
Blake now says that it’s over between the two of them because that’s the only way to save Amy’s life.
"Now the most dignified thing I can ever do in my life is to release somebody I love from my f**king grasp, from my clutches. When I see pictures of Amy and the state she’s in it tears my heart out. I just want to pick her up and help her. But I can’t – because I’m the man who caused it all. It scares me to death that I can’t fix Amy. But for her recovery I have to leave her alone.
"I will never stop wanting Amy an loving her and craving her. More than anything I am addicted to Amy. I will do anything for her – and that includes walking away. If something bad happened to Amy now I would kill myself without a question."
WOW! What do you think about all of this? Could it be true? Is there hope for Amy? Does she want help?
This is such a lame excuze of him to fucking leave her
i mean…to save her? he already left her for a whole year
so what’s good about walking out on her now?
couldnt he”save” her sooner? befor he even got himself in troubl and let her dragg a freaking year alone?!
he’s supposed to make it up to her after that,not abandoned her
if he loved her so mush like he claims he does of coures he wouldnt
have done those things + not go away from her.
ANYONE agrees with me??????
nevermind she’ll get over this phsyco shes a strong jew
all the best to amy, Ricky from Israel
As much as he may (I have my doubts) feel really guilty about it, she was not a child when she took drugs. I mean, EVERYONE know what drugs do. And about a few comments above: addiction IS to cover something up. ANY addiction – sex, food, drugs, alcohol…
Interesting….at least now we know the full extent of her addiction, and how bad off she is…….rather than seeing sketchy, grainy videos that may or may not be her smoking crack….or paparazzi photos of her stoned out of her mind, leaving us to only guess what she’s been up to. That totally sucks that he introduced that stuff to her…he’s 100% right…..he took something beautiful and talented and completley ruined it. But I don’t get how he thinks he can save her by leaving her…I dunno….must be one of those 12-step things***annie***
Blake is full of crap.
I’m surprised to read you saying that you agree that Blaaaaaaake messed up Amy. Amy was dyslexic and had learning disabilities. This predisposes many people to depression, obsessive compulsive tendencies, etc. This mental state is ripe for drug addiction. How do you know that if Blake didn’t come around, she wouldn’t have done the same thing. Further, her relationship with her mother was TOXIC, severely toxic. Her mother once joked that she had to take Amy to the dentist and put their cat down and sometimes wishes that she should have done the reverse…put Amy down and taken the cat to the dentist. Can you imagine a mother saying that? There are many mothers out there who have been viciously toxic to their daughter’s state of mind but manipulation and guilt make the daughter feel that something’s wrong with her. C’est triste.
Taking what he says for what it is worth, he probably wanted to say that staying away from her is better than being with her and being an all over bad influence. As far as I am an hopeless romantic, I prefer to believe he is being honest. But what about having another woman and trying to look like HE is trying to help?
Amy wasn’t into hard drugs before she met Blake. He introduced her to Class A drugs and without him she wouldn’t have met the people who would supply her willingly with drugs. So, yes, he messed her up.
The real problem is that Blaaaaaake has been in jail and away from Amy for the past year and that hasn’t really seemed to help her, has it? So spin this as you’re being as chivalrous as you want Blake; I’m just glad you’re taking at least part of the responsibility for the situation.
The effects of Class A drugs aren’t exactly a secret. So, unless he tied her to a chair and forced a syringe into her vein, she willingly made a choice to start doing drugs with him. I’ve been around friends who were using and it’s really not that difficult a choice to make. She messed herself up, he just made it easier to do.
Did he read Twilight in prison? AHAHAHA…
Way to spin it Blake. He probably is the one that introduced her to that crap. However I think it is his cheating with a model that is ending the marriage.
Couldn’t agree with you more!
He probably is the one that introduced her to that crap.
Did you even read the article? He admitted he is the one who introduced her to it!
Blake, PLEASE! ITA w/you, Amy. I may not be omnipresent nor omniscient, but the guy was videotaped kicking some poor guy’s head in and using drugs whilst in jail. At least he was honest about one thing, if he goes back to Winehouse and her millions, those two may wind up hospitalized or worse. Haven’t heard from Winehouse, so much for, “No, no, no….”
it is a 2 way street. He is an a$$hole but so is she. Amy was not a child when she started experimenting. she new about drugs and their effect on body because everyone does. however, for some reason she wanted escapism.
I agree, when a person chooses to do drugs is their choice. Amy, I’m sure was doing drugs before Blake; she was probably not doing the harder drugs. I’m sure she wasn’t a virging to drugs. Some people choose alcohol, food, sex or drugs. Addiction to anything is just a cover for something else.
I just dont understand how he thinks leaving her will save her? She is already hooked, she is there, and just because he is gone doesnt mean she will stop, if anything it will get worse. I too think it has to do with the other chick he wants to be with. I just hope Amy can get better..
This is such a lame excuse of him to fucking leave her
i mean…to save her? he already left her for a whole year
so what’s good about walking out on her now?
couldnt he”save” her sooner? befor he even got himself in troubl and let her dragg a freaking year alone?!
he’s supposed to make it up to her after that,not abandoned her
if he loved her so mush like he claims he does of coures he wouldnt
have done those things + not go away from her.
ANYONE agrees with me??????
nevermind she’ll get over this phsyco shes a strong jew
all the best to amy, Ricky from Israel.
This is such a lame excuse of him to fucking leave her
i mean…to save her? he already left her for a whole year
so what’s good about walking out on her now?
couldnt he”save” her sooner? befor he even got himself in troubl and let her dragg a freaking year alone?!
he’s supposed to make it up to her after that,not abandoned her
if he loved her so mush like he claims he does of coures he wouldnt
have done those things + not go away from her.
ANYONE agrees with me??????
nevermind she’ll get over this phsyco shes a strong jew
all the best to amy, Ricky from Israel.
Well at least he recognizes that she needs to be apart from him for the rest of her life if she wants to survive.
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you dont hurt the people you truly love like that…when you love someone you want to build them up not take them down with you into your issues & addictions, yes, misery loves company, but when you care about someone you dont do that, you do whatever is in your control to keep them from becoming miserable like you….he may be sorry now, but its too late…it seems like this is probably part of his therapy & now he is trying to redeem himself & get rid of his guilt over introducing her to harm. he sounds like a martyr now, oh he loves her so much he is giving her up…please!
Addiction to anything is just a cover for something else.
Well aren’t we all knowing and all seeing today… You really have no clue what you’re talking about do you?
Addiction to anything is just a cover for something else.
Well aren’t we all knowing and all seeing today… You really have no clue what you’re talking about do you?
I never claim to be all knowing and all seeing….since you don’t personally know me, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU’RE TALKING TO, OR WHAT I KNOW. DO ME A FAVOR AND SHUT THE F*CK UP.
Gisela is right though — Most of the time addiction IS a cover for something else.
does not take a rocket scientist to figure this out. A woman decided to do drugs. What’s there we have ‘no clue’ about? You probably need a shrink or authority figure to tell you how to do everything, since you have no common sense.
You know wat I can’t stand, its a-holes like you who state personally insulting comments and don’t even have the guts to register yourself…. anonymous my ass…. you are a sad and bitter person, think you need a shrink….
listen, idiot, it is not WHO is saying it that is important (that is just so you can keep tabs and create your virtual friendship since you have no other life). It is WHAT is said that is important. Registered or not makes no difference. Go and register for $5 gift on the next posting.
She won’t quit doing drugs if he leaves her. It’s obvious that she likes doing drugs… a lot.