Did you hear about the series of seemingly suicidal posts Tila Tequila made on twitter last Monday evening? Here's a recap (courtesy of E! Online, since Tila's twitter page is now protected):

"I am going to kill myself cuz I don't want to life in a world where its filled with IGNORANCE! which majority of you ARE! & racists!" she threatened. "As dark descends into my world…I drown at night, without a fight. One last breath before I go. Dont mourn me world, I will die slow."

Tila took to her blog to explain herself.

I am a bit embarrassed and ashamed that the whole world witnessed my very public meltdown about being suicidal, but at the same time, I know that I shouldn't be. I believe that it was God's way of trying to help me because it is not my time to die. Had I not spoken out for help, my loved ones would not have seen my cry for help, and I probably wouldn't be alive today to write this letter to you. Had I not done what I did that night, I most definitely would have made the biggest mistake of my life, that I can never undo....

Then Tila explains how she's had a difficult time since her altercation with Shawne Merriman and the case being dismissed later due to insufficient evidence. I hope Tila is getting the help she needs; she's certainly had a rough time of it lately.

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Tila Tequila is tougher than she looks. According to People, Tila put an NFL player Shawne Merriman under citizen's arrest after he allegedly choked and restrained her. Tiny little Tila!

"[Tila Tequila] made a citizen's arrest," Sheriff's Lt. Gary Steadman tells PEOPLE.

The release reported that Shawne was arrested on charges of battery and false imprisonment. No decision has been made regarding whether or not the district attorney's office will prosecute.

Tila reportedly was hospitalized; her condition is unknown. Hopefully she wasn't seriously injured!

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